When Good is Enough
Friday, September 18, 2015
This week I wanted to write a post sharing my excitement for the blog's new design. Unfortunately, you're being subjected to a bit of a rant instead. I have a problem with comparing myself to others. I compare what I look like, how much I weigh, what state my home is in, how well behaved my child is, the list goes on and on. And now I even compare what my blog looks like to others. Which is really sad because this blog is meant to be a place of comfort and creativity for me, not another mechanism for judgement.
I hoped a blog would encourage positive thoughts, not self-doubt and perfectionism. Unfortunately, I can't seem to escape the insatiable need to be perfect, even in a cyber world. I've realized that sometimes being good enough is not good enough for me.
Why do I sit here frustrated with myself for not posting as regularly as I "should," for not having more followers, and for not having a new design? This blog does not need to be perfect. This blog needs to exist for me, that's it. That's good enough. So why isn't it?
I recently wanted to update this blog to look more "professional." You may have noticed that a few things have changed, a few too many times. I went searching on Etsy for an easy new blogger template to buy. I found one that I loved. It had lovely flowers on the header and a simple and classy font.
In my excitement to enhance the blog, to try to make it "perfect", I quickly bought the template and updated the blog, only to realize after installing the new template that it was not responsive - i.e. it does not automatically re-size for different devices, such as mobile phones. You know, the device that everyone uses nowadays for pretty much everything, including reading blog posts. (I dread the day when I have to explain to my child what a PCis was).
So, here I am with my new but not up to date blog design. If you're reading this on your phone and wondering what new design? Don't worry, you didn't miss anything. Unfortunately for you it still looks like every other blogger blog. If you're on a computer, lucky you! You can see the lovely new header and layout. But don't get too attached, it will most likely be changing, again, as I navigate this world of blogging.
For now though, this blog is good enough. It may not look pretty on your cell phone, but it provides a creative outlet for me. And at this moment, this exercise in writing is reminding me that I have too much to be grateful for to sit here and stress over a non-responsive blog template.
I may not have the perfect home, body, blog or life, but I have enough to be good. Really, really good.
Why do I sit here frustrated with myself for not posting as regularly as I "should," for not having more followers, and for not having a new design? This blog does not need to be perfect. This blog needs to exist for me, that's it. That's good enough. So why isn't it?
Why do we have such a hard time accepting that sometimes good is enough?
I recently wanted to update this blog to look more "professional." You may have noticed that a few things have changed, a few too many times. I went searching on Etsy for an easy new blogger template to buy. I found one that I loved. It had lovely flowers on the header and a simple and classy font.
In my excitement to enhance the blog, to try to make it "perfect", I quickly bought the template and updated the blog, only to realize after installing the new template that it was not responsive - i.e. it does not automatically re-size for different devices, such as mobile phones. You know, the device that everyone uses nowadays for pretty much everything, including reading blog posts. (I dread the day when I have to explain to my child what a PC
So, here I am with my new but not up to date blog design. If you're reading this on your phone and wondering what new design? Don't worry, you didn't miss anything. Unfortunately for you it still looks like every other blogger blog. If you're on a computer, lucky you! You can see the lovely new header and layout. But don't get too attached, it will most likely be changing, again, as I navigate this world of blogging.
For now though, this blog is good enough. It may not look pretty on your cell phone, but it provides a creative outlet for me. And at this moment, this exercise in writing is reminding me that I have too much to be grateful for to sit here and stress over a non-responsive blog template.
I may not always look as nice or thin or put together as I want, but I am healthy and I know what a gift that is. My house is definitely not as clean or organized as I want, but it is lived in by a family I love and get to make memories with every single day. Even when those memories include red crayon marks all over the wall....or a dinner burning on the stove...it's still good. I just have to let it be enough.
I may not have the perfect home, body, blog or life, but I have enough to be good. Really, really good.
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